Dunno what to n ame this

When do you flipping ever know that people will laugh at your stupid flipping head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! pressing buttons helps gets anger out/. In school today I have this crush on this boy and I asked him out thanks to pips annoying persuasions, and he actually, physically said , "no.' and I swear I heard him LAUGGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  At the end of the day Gemma (grr) she said why do you ask him out , Im sure your too young, or at least your brain is. AND PEOPLE think just because I'm A FLIPPING DUMB MONKEY (YES I DID get called A DUMB MONKEY ONCE COURTESY OF GEMMA)

Gemma has a non-tastic unfairy-doo grudge (!!!!!!) against me because of this blog, but its made me stronger in my actions. Even though she knows I care, she knows I have supporters e.g Adrianna, Pip, skating friends and even my followers Tiana, EmzyVera, Cari, Susie, Pip again, myself, myself again, Cari again, Emzy again, Marina and fineshe.

I just dont get it how people assume that I'm younger than them because I might be less able to do some work than them. I am dumb, I am dumb. People used to make me think that and I used to have terrible thoughts and self doubts (!! I am on a roll) when the penny dropped that they were dumb. They were wasting time getting me deeper into my own pity.

Wow- I could be like Astircotaes watshisface that greek philospher.

But then I look at other peoples blogs and to be honest, I just think why cant I write that?? I cant think of that??

I dont want to pull all my lovely readers into this so more of the fun me!!!

But I felt so embarassed when he said no, and you know Gemma was right in one way. I am newly 14 and to be honest I think thats young... perhaps half a year more ?? lol I might not delete this blog but just stop blogging for a while. Dont stop following me though!! Might be for TWO WHOLE WEEKS!!!

Can I build on this later on as the clever people say?? Yes, thats you. I dont know what to do tomorow.... Im so embarassed but you know what if Im asked about it I'll just say, "yeah I changed my mind...I dont want to date anyway."

Should I

a) Not talk to Gemma and talk to other people and look cool and not her helpers or followers not in blog terms.

b) Be sickly sweet.

c) Give it to her straight that she was horrible to me and should not have laughed at me and said I was young even though I am a bit older.

d) Going to the Head or Teacher is not an option.

On another subject to my crush..... all the things that I said up there but just changing her to him. You know what-- I dont need to do anything. Let them read this blog. But I'd still like advice!